I’m engaged and yet I’m alone on f*n Valentines Day?!
Yup. So my fiance is still in bed … I took the day from classes to spend it with him and he’s fuck’n sleeping. It’s 11:30am. I love him to pieces but I’m so ticked off right now. We’re supposed to go out for dinner tonight. I’m going to be wearing my best dress, probably spending 3+ hours doing my hair, make-up & getting ready … he probably won’t even notice. And it’s usually up to me to keep the conversation going. I can never tell if he’s just getting depressed from his bi-polar or if we’re growing apart. Fuck’n pisses me off ….
I just want him to hug me, say he loves me, that I look nice today or that he can’t wait to go on our date … is that too much to ask for? Apart from showing him this post; I’m out of ideas. I told him last night how I was feeling.
In fact! He was planning on going out of town to visit his family from last friday until tomorrow … if I hadn’t reminded him that valentines then he wouldn’t have even noticed. It’s just frustrating. It makes me want to not even go out tonight.
Why should I put so much effort into something that he won’t notice, or care about.
I’m crying … and it’s valentines day :(